“…And
only now can I say, after the experience I had on the side of the river where I
was alone in the dead of night with the primordial sound of nature all around, contemplating, when I had a complete
turnabout and revelation concerning how I had been living my life- I now wanted
some way of putting that feeling of absolute peace and serenity and harmonious
solitude into my own day-to-day.
It seems to me entirely reasonable to suspect- maybe meaning something or
maybe not- that the swell of being comes to a head from time to time, without
knowing or reason or a flash to suspect, that no reflection or vivid memory can
recount that divine sense of living, of being alive, when the universe
dissolves in the palm your hand and becomes you- we put our heads down and
carry along just waiting for the next crazy adventure to consume us.”
-Extracted from One Subtle Tempest
There is one
facet of experience that can never be taught, never be given to an individual-
and that is the feeling one becomes acquainted with when the I of the self
fades away, when the vacuous space between one soul and another becomes a
current that runs through the body, and when the mindset instantly shifts from
the perception of division to a sense of perfect unity and harmony. It is at this juncture when we must
decide for ourselves whether or not to live from this space and seek it out as
our life’s work, or to let it fade away, perhaps taking what we need in the
process. But graveyards are full
of middling swordsmen, and this sort of light and love only fills those who
choose carry it with every step along their path.
We all have a
dharma. A tree has a dharma; a
fish has a dharma, a deer, even the fly that buzzes in your house and the small
plankton swimming in the sea. We
can only know what our nature is, and carry it out in the best way we know
how. For a very long period of
time I used to be angry about the battle I have had with Lyme disease, and
other chronic health concerns and their lasting aftereffects. I wasn’t angry about anything I did in
particular. In fact, many things
were perhaps completely out of my control. But I was just angry- angry at my situation, the past, what could
have been different. But, my point
is that if this sort of aimless rage goes untreated, it turns itself onto every
other situation in your life, resembling resentment and discontent. But just like we cannot blame the
people in our lives that put us down, I cannot blame the tick for carrying out
it’s dharma- that is, to survive and attach to a host. It was doing what it knew how, carrying
out it’s dharma. You see, we all
live together in this harmonious dance.
We all live from the same source, the same one fountain of divine love
and perfection. We must see
everything- the traffic on our way to work, the rain that doesn’t cease for a
week, the leaves falling from a tree- as perfect. When we remove our thoughts and beliefs about our life, and
try to think what that would mean in a year, two, a hundred, or even
five-hundred thousand years- the small trivial worries begin to fade and a
shift happens. We become a fly on
the wall. We learn to live and
enjoy living in this dance.
Because wherever we are, whatever has happened, is surely perfect.
So if you
question this post, ask yourself a something. If you have the choice to see you life as perfect or flawed-
and could not be sure about the truth of either state- why not choose the side
of your favor and decide for yourself that it is certain and live from that
place?
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